Hello there, it's me. Remember me, Alex? I barely do. Long intro short, I want to occasionally use my blog again & base it on lifestyle & of course beauty. I guess this post could be considered under the "lifestyle" category.
Disclaimer-I'm going to keep it simple, real, & unedited as possible on this blog. Just sort of freestyle writing. To some it may be annoying, but for me it's intent is authenticity, the mission for this blog.
So "Coming Out" as the title states. I'm coming out to you as depressed. Soooo so so so so depressed. It hurts mentally & physically-yes physically who knew (I didn't). Along with depression comes other problems. One for me has been eating. I even sleep eat sometimes to "comfort" myself, but we all know that doesn't work.
Depression has held me back from so much as those of you may know who have this illness. I'm bringing this to your attention because it's keeping me from being productive in many ways, one of which is creating & posting for you guys on my youtube channel.
I look back at some of my older videos on lipstickbabydoll & I want to cry. I had it then, but it wasn't as severe & I was having fun, enjoying it, being creative & just excited.
I have stuff sitting around my room waiting to be filmed, but it sits & sits & collects dust...sort of like me.
I won't ramble on too long, I will post more in the future, but wanted to get it out there. I enjoy youtube & the joy I get from interacting & sharing with you. But it's not for lack of interest, it's just a crippling grip on me right now.
Share with me if you have a similar situation, if you can relate, what you do to cope? I'd love to chat. Thanks for listening & talk to you later
xo, Alex
